Outside it was a hot day. I don’t really enjoy hot days. I like fall weather. My alabaster white skin just burns to a crisp on hot sunny days. Inside there was a lot of emotional uncomfortableness. I don’t really like emotional uncomfortableness either. It has taken some learning and practice to become better able to remain in the midst of emotional uncomfortableness without feeling the need to resolve things. Yet this story comes from a time when I had not learned healthy coping skills, personal boundaries and the ingredients to a healthy marriage. Perhaps you have heard the saying “If momma ain’t happy, then nobody is happy.” Well in my case when momma (ex-wife) wasn’t happy I took on the responsibility to fix the situation. And there were a lot of times momma wasn’t happy. She told me her unhappiness was often tied to her self diagnosed OCD. Whatever the case I had put myself in the position of attempting to maintain homeostasis in the household. When there was conflict I attempted ...
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